Something Wicked - Drarry RP iamcrystalqueer and nymeria

Nymeria · **Posted:** Sat Aug 05, 2023 5:16 am

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Harry had felt of little use throughout the day, but as Draco had finished Ron’s examination and had moved on to Hermione’s, Ron had showed such clear signs of a building agitation that Harry had ushered him out of the meeting room; if Harry could do nothing else, he’d at least give Draco a calm environment to work in.
Removing Ron from his wife hadn’t particularly helped calm him down. In this far corner of the Ministry, the silence between the men felt so loud, Ron’s tension filling the air around them.
“She’s going to be fine,” Harry attempted, finding that ignoring Ron’s upset felt even more awkward than fumbling his way through a conversation. “You’ve felt it yourself, it’s not painful.”

iamcrystalqueer · **Posted:** Sun Aug 06, 2023 3:13 pm

Ron had never thought that any part of this was a good idea and had only agreed in the first place because Hermione had been absolutely insistent. He knew that she hadn’t interacted much more with Malfoy than he had ever since the war, so the sudden unwavering trust she was showing him made his stomach churn, however, he knew better than to question her when she was so certain of something, so he had gone along with it.
Now though, post examination and knowing that Hermione was in there with him alone, it was a lot harder to keep his feelings under wraps.
“You are a ****ing idiot, you know that right?” He stated, turning to look at the man he still thought of as his best friend, even though the distance between them had become painfully wide since his divorce from Ginny.

Nymeria · **Posted:** Tue Aug 08, 2023 3:04 pm

Harry flinched as though he had been slapped, the words cutting through the tension, landing a harsh blow somewhere between Harry’s ribs. It shattered the fragile attempt at composure Harry carried for an expression, his face falling like he was several decades younger.
Ron’s disapproval and anger always seemed to strike something within Harry that stretched far back into his early childhood, holding Ron to such great esteem even when their friendship was in tatters.
“I don’t -” he stumbled meekly, but he didn’t have it in him to finish the sentence. Neither asking for clarification nor denying anything felt genuine, knowing in the pit of his stomach that no matter what precisely Ron was talking about, he was probably right.

iamcrystalqueer · **Posted:** Thu Aug 24, 2023 2:00 pm

Now that the floodgate was opened, Ron knew that there would be no stopping it.
He had spent years being close with Harry and knowing him better than he knew himself, but this really solidified just how far they had grown apart.
It was hard not to blame himself for the way Harry’s life had turned out but Ron really thought that their relation was better than this. The fact that Harry had seen the need to reach out to Malfoy before he reached out to Ron and Hermione was hurtful at best and he had to make sure that he hadn’t entirely lost his mind.
“Malfoy? Really? I knew you weren’t in good shape man, but trusting Malfoy with something like this? Have you lost your damn mind?”

Nymeria · **Posted:** Thu Aug 24, 2023 3:14 pm

Ron’s words clawed at Harry’s throat, suffocating any possible retort he could even begin to muster. Everything felt so fragile that the impact of Ron’s anger threatened to make it all shatter. A month ago, perhaps Harry had been able to muster a defence, but now, everything felt so pitiful and useless that it made him sick with it. For how much Harry had been able to defend Draco in the past, now he came up short, finding that the mere reminder of the trust he had held - still held - in Draco threatening to make tears well up with the sheer weight of the loss he felt thinking about it.
Working his jaw, Harry stiffly averted his gaze, looking aimlessly to the side.
“I don’t know what you want me to say,” he replied, his voice small.

iamcrystalqueer · **Posted:** Sat Aug 26, 2023 4:39 pm

“Anything,” Ron stated, exasperated by the way that Harry seemed to have just accepted his situation, as if there was nothing to be done and he just had to accept help from Malfoy of all people.
“We barely even talk anymore and now when you do talk to me, it’s just to convince us to let Malfoy look at our old scars,” he ranted on, having a lot of pent up feelings that he was finally having the chance to let out. Despite everything, he still deeply cared about Harry and wanted him to do better for himself, but this was so baffling to him and he just wanted him to take care of himself.

Nymeria · **Posted:** Sun Aug 27, 2023 5:45 am

"That is what I need from you right now," Harry said, his voice tight from the knot forming in his throat.
He turned to look at Ron, but his gaze wasn't steadfast, flickering across his features, lips slightly parted in a look of genuine helplessness.
Talking with Ron had become increasingly difficult with age, both speaking as though they still maintained any sense of trust between them; in reality, that level of trust hadn't existed between them for years, undermining any and all arguments Ron tried to land.
Perhaps especially becaude Harry had talked to him just days prior, but the upset visible in Ron's expression betrayed the fact that it hadn't been what he had wanted to hear, making it all so pointless to argue about.
"I'm sorry if that isn't what you were looking for, but if you want to help, this is it."

iamcrystalqueer · **Posted:** Sat Sep 30, 2023 5:27 pm

Despite what he had just said, Ron wasn’t pleased with what Harry had to tell him, still sceptical of the idea of trusting Malfoy with anything at all, much less th personal health of his best friend. However, he also knew just how strained his and Harry’s relationship had become over the years and while he saw no way of permanently mending it, he figured that this might be a good first step.
Unable to properly shift the grimace that seemed to have taken permanent hold of his features, he nodded curtly, wanting to let Harry know that he was going to go along with the plan but that he wasn’t pleased with it.
“Fine,” was what he settled on, hoping that years of friendship was going to help convey his actual meaning.

Nymeria · **Posted:** Tue Oct 03, 2023 2:47 pm

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Even though Ron had behaved after their talk, it really didn't do much to ease Harry's continued feeling of discomfort, and by the time they were allowed back into the conference room, the perpetual state of adrenaline induced anxiety had started to feel like it was away at his very last reserves.
Draco had probably finished Hermione’s examination only minutes ago, but their departure felt like it stretched on forever, the mood in the room stifled with the effort all four put into pretending that it wasn’t. While Harry had met Ron and Hermione in the Atrium upon their arrival, he didn’t follow them out when they left, exhaustion settling around him like a heavy blanket; he watched the door close behind Ron from the conference table in the middle of the room, leaning back against the edge of it to steady himself.

iamcrystalqueer · **Posted:** Wed Oct 04, 2023 2:47 pm

The entire ordeal had been absolutely exhausting to Draco, even if he had been the one to request to get to do the tests in the first place. However, he felt fairly vindicated in his suspicions even now, despite not having had the time to analyse his findings yet.
This was, of course, bad news for Harry, but it did also mean that Draco would know that it wasn’t just a regular horcrux scar, and maybe he could do something with that.
“How are you holding up?” Draco asked the second the door closed behind Weasley and Granger, knowing that Harry had been through the wringer as well and it really showed in his body language. He looked tired and spent and there was nothing Draco wanted more than to wrap him up in his arms.

Nymeria · **Posted:** Sat Oct 07, 2023 2:20 pm

It took Draco speaking for Harry to turn towards him, needing a beat to properly place him in the room. To be honest, Harry felt like he was dreaming, so detached from his own body that he could only barely feel the cut of the tabletop against his thighs.
The weight of Draco’s attention, however, made Harry thoughtlessly straighten his shoulders, discreetly taking a single, deeper breath.
“I’m alright,” he exaggerated, though not by enough that it felt like a lie.

iamcrystalqueer · **Posted:** Sat Oct 07, 2023 3:45 pm

It was a lie.
It didn’t take any expert knowledge on Harry Potter to be able to tell that he really wasn’t alright, however, Draco also knew better than to dig too deeply into it. If Harry wasn’t up for sharing with him, then that was understandable given their circumstances.
“I won’t have any conclusive results for a couple of days, but based on what I have seen, it doesn’t not look promising,” he stated, figuring that he at least owed to Harry to share what he knew.
“Granger and Weasley’s scars are definitely not acting the way that I see your’s do.”

Nymeria · **Posted:** Sun Oct 08, 2023 4:50 am

Harry had thought he had gone into this examination without any real expectations, and still, the moment Draco offered his results, Harry felt something within him sink. In another world, Harry would have felt relieved on Ron and Hermione’s behalf, not wishing any harm upon them, but in that split second, Harry felt the too-familiar weight of loneliness.
“Right,” he said, voice flat and far away.
Looking at Draco, Harry felt like he probably should have some follow up questions, but he couldn’t think of any, his mind too fuzzy to construct any meaningful line of thought. Still, feeling the pressure of words-unspoken knotting up his throat, Harry forced out another meeker: “Right.”

iamcrystalqueer · **Posted:** Sat Oct 21, 2023 1:43 pm

It pained Draco to see Harry in such a stressed out state, knowing that most of the stress was something that he had put there. He knew that he needed to do this, otherwise Harry was sure to die, but he desperately wished that there was a way that would cause Harry less stress.
“I wish I had better news for you, but it does mean that you were right originally,” he found himself saying, wanting to do everything in his power to ease Harry’s mind, even if it was just a little.
“It’s not the scar itself.”

Nymeria · **Posted:** Sun Oct 22, 2023 5:13 am

The sound Harry made was somewhere between a laugh and a sob, feeling like it was being punched out of him. It felt like a lifetime ago that Harry had stood in Draco’s foyer arguing about this exact thing, and the devastating inevitability of it all seemed to hit him all at once.
Feeling the sting of tears, he pushed his hands beneath the rim of his glasses, harshly rubbing his fingers against his eyes in an attempt to steady himself and to stop himself from crying.
“Christ,” Harry muddled into his palms, his voice as shaky as he felt, slumping further against the table.

iamcrystalqueer · **Posted:** Thu Oct 26, 2023 9:59 am

There was nothing that could have prepared Draco for how Harry just broke down in front of him.
He knew that everything about his diagnosis had stressed him out and yet Draco realised that he had failed to see just how much of a burden it was to Harry.
Feeling a little awkward, Draco got up from where he was sitting, going instead to stand behind Harry and place a careful hand on his shoulder. He wanted to be able to comfort him somehow but with how fragmented their relationship had become, he wasn’t sure if that was even something that he could do any more.
“I’m sorry I can’t be more comfort,” he said as he gently ran his hand along Harry’s shoulder blades, finding that the easy physicality they had shared was lying just beneath the surface and yet Draco didn’t feel like he would be allowed to commit to it.

Nymeria · **Posted:** Thu Oct 26, 2023 1:05 pm

Harry stilled when Draco reached for him, not with discomfort but with the desperate attempt to mirror Draco’s composure, the gentleness of his touch, to allow himself to be comforted by him. Hands still pressing against his closed eyes, he took a breath and held it, trying to keep the tears abay.
Harry didn’t feel propelled back a year, but rather decades, and the devastating familiarity of knowing he was going to die almost broke him. He held his breath until his lungs burned, and for the first time, he thought he could feel the magic burrowed in his chest eating him alive.
“I don’t think I can do this again,” he eventually whispered, his voice small and shaky with the effort to keep himself together.

iamcrystalqueer · **Posted:** Thu Oct 26, 2023 1:31 pm

There was no thought to Draco’s actions, still finding Harry and everything about him so familiar that he barely even realised that he was hugging him until he made the active choice of resting his chin on top of his head. It was less of a hug and more of Draco just pulling Harry close and holding him tight, but he found that it was the only proper thing that he could do.
He didn’t know what it was that was killing Harry but he knew that he wasn’t going to stop until he found out, even if it meant studying this forever and potentially losing his career in the ministry in the process.
“I’ll figure this out,” Draco promised, knowing better than anyone that he really wasn’t in a position to be making promises like that, but he felt that he had to say something to make Harry feel less helpless.
“This is a good thing, we’re not starting over, okay? I’m checking things off my list,” he added, knowing that that was partially true and he felt that they could both use the white lie to not fall completely into despair.

Nymeria · **Posted:** Thu Oct 26, 2023 1:56 pm

There was a long moment where Harry’s hands remained at his face, forearms pinned against Draco’s chest with fragile self-preservation and forced composure, before Harry felt himself break.
A choked sob finally wrecked through him, sagging into Draco as Harry finally opened himself up to meet the embrace, exhaustion hitting him all at once.
Wrapping his arms around Draco, Harry clutched at his shirt, glasses digging into his nose as he pressed his face into Draco’s shoulder, juvenile and scared tears staining the fabric.
“I don't want to die,” he begged in a sob, overwhelmed with the fear of his own mortality, certain he wouldn’t be able to survive it thrice. “Please.”

iamcrystalqueer · **Posted:** Thu Oct 26, 2023 2:05 pm

How completely Harry broke apart in his arms almost made Draco want to sob as well, wanting to keep Harry close and wrapped in his arms until he found a way to fix the awful predicament they were finding themselves in.
It was heartbreaking to watch and Draco couldn’t help but feel relieved that it was just the two of them and that no one else was going to be around for this moment of tenderness.
“I’m not going to let you die,” he stated as his hand found its way to Harry’s hair, running through it like it had done so many times in the past. This was the first proper truth that Draco had told him her but he could feel it deep within his bones.
He had no idea what it was going to take, but he knew that there was no way that he was going to allow Harry to die.
“Okay? I promise you that I am not letting you die,” he repeated, feeling even more certain about it the second time around. “I can’t.”

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